Samvega

samvega; it covers three clusters of feelings at once:
"the oppressive sense of shock, dismay, and alienation that come with realizing the futility and meaninglessness of life as it's normally lived;
a chastening sense of our own complacency and foolishness in having let ourselves live so blindly;
and an anxious sense of urgency in trying to find a way out of the meaningless cycle."

Samvega; a sense of urgency to escape the round of meaningless existence; and pasada, a clarity and serene confidence that allows one to proceed confidently towards the goal without lapsing into despair.